Antti Lauronen: Ahtautua ulos täytetystä joutsenesta

Teos: Antti Lauronen

Osallistuin Daniil Kozlovin pitämälle lyriikan viikonloppukurssille, joka järjestettiin Ahlmanilla lokakuussa 2023. Tässä yksi runo, jonka kirjoitin kurssilla.

Ahtautua ulos täytetystä joutsenesta

Pienistä silmänrei’istä näen sinut
odotat perhosen laskeutuvan olallesi on kylmä
juoponnapitettu flanelli keinahtelee henkarilla
arpinen kulkukissa säntää sen ali mikrofoni suussaan
nyökkää hyväksyvästi jotain pyytäen.
Pitsiset kummitukset tanssivat bensa-asemalla
ilmassa leviää muovinen sumu xylofonit soivat
ohi lentää nimeämätön lintu
samanlaisia olen nähnyt vain pohjanmaalla
katsot kohti rantaa kumiveneellä lipuvaa Jumalaa
ajattelet koditonta yötä ja sen kodikasta katkua
kohteita
jotka liikkuvat liikaa valokuvattavaksi.
Luulosairaat askeleet ovat lähellä seisot edessä
tumansa koordinaatteja jäljittelevän reuhkan
kynsiesi alla löllyvä mätä ottaa valuman muodon, riisuu sinut
minulla on kylmä ja repeydyn
rakennan pientä alttaria vauvanukeista ja kuolleiden kuninkaiden luista
tahtoisin ostaa teltan
mutta en tiedä millainen olisi hyvä.
Ahtaudun ulos täytetystä joutsenesta ja katson kun
sinä höyryhengität keskellä avotulta
kuin dynamiitit tähdet purskahtavat taivaalle
eikä runon puhujaa ole jälkeesi enää olemassa.

Antti Lauronen on kirjoittajalinjan ensimmäisen vuoden opiskelija

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